Friday, October 26, 2007

400

This is a crazy thing, but right now, you are reading the four-hundreth post to this blog.

A lot has happened over the past two and some years. A couple of jobs, a couple of apartments. Some downs, many ups.

It took a long time for people to start commenting, but today, when I had only approved a couple of comments over the past week, I realized that a lot of people respond to what I write here. That's nice, I like it.

I find the blog occasionally worrisome, like who the fuck cares about my family's socks, really. Why does it matter that I write any of this?

On our trip, Amy asked me if I ever had problems finding something to blog about. I laughed. There are days that I don't feel like blogging, yes. This week has been a surprising and sad week for me and I have felt more like either throwing a tantrum or curling up inside myself and hibernating till after the end times than writing.

But most days, I spend my time chunking off little bits of action into stories I think would be fun for you to read. Hardly any of them get written. Half the time I sit down in front of the computer and something entirely else comes out. It has changed my writing skills significantly and made me look at the world differently than I ever would have otherwise.

Why does blogging matter? I'm not sure that it does, in the end. If I stopped blogging today, there are a few people around who would miss the daily/weekly/occasional check-in and then after a while would forget I ever wrote anything down.

I think I would miss it, though, and terribly. Putting your happy times and shitty days out there and having a mostly silent audience hold you up out of it? I've come to enjoy that, very much.

Thank you, mostly silent audience.

7 comments:

Andrea... said...

No no no.... Thank YOU.

sarah anne said...

i like reading and checking-in. it's fun to see what your perspective is about life and what's going on. thanks.

Eric Espig said...

my favourite girl blogs about sex and tropical fish? how spoiled am I?

Patti said...

I don't recall if I've ever commented on your blog before, but if I haven't, it wasn't because I don't enjoy reading it. More like I worried you'd think "why is some strange woman reading my blog??" Somehow blogging is better than writing your feelings in a private diary, isn't it? Putting it out there for the world to take or leave...it helps us all feel more human, I think. Thanks...and keep writing.

Asteroidea Press said...

oh! you all are so nice.

i'm glad you enjoy.

Anonymous said...

thanks for being such a lovely writer.

Sarah Coulson said...

Daily viewer; however, I don't think I've ever commented. Overall, you are my favorite site to visit, so please keep on writing.